Today was the beginning of a new day. Although I have been attending Mass for years with my wife and children, I did not fully participate nor appreciate every act , rite, prayer etc during the service. I have always been a supportive person, attended for the family, enjoyed the sermons and homilies but not really did NOT pay attention. As you know, I I recently decided to convert, and in doing so have thrown myself into the educational process as well as the spiritual process of becoming Catholic.
For years I have stood when told to rise, sat went instructed to do so etc. however, today was the first Mass I have attended in years where I actually kneeled in prayer (yes, I actually prayed). Although still not comfortable with performing the signs of the cross, or using holy water, I am making strides. Who knows.. Next week I may actually memorize the spiritual communion prayer or others I have been learning about.
I continue to read and discuss the process with my family and really really am looking forward to beginning the RCIA process in September.
